Flunked out of college... idk what to do?

So i have never really been a good student. I was always failing ( especially math and science classes ) or doing just enough to get by. Im 18, i graduated high school in 2010, i attended a community college for 2 semesters. i flunked first semester, i failed 3 out of my 4 classes, it wasn't was i was use to in high school it was so much harder. i felt really stupid compared to other kids. I became depressed during the end of that semester. I really didn't want to go back but i did , to start over again for the 2nd semester ( on academic probation ) it started off good but it just got harder to handle. I started off with 4 classes, art , math, reading, and writing. i dropped art because i changed my major, and i dropped math because since i have sickle cell anemia im absent.. a lot. and math is just too hard to catch up on for me. and i didn't want to ruin my GPA any further at the moment. So i just had reading and writing, i always do good in reading. but writing i have a hard time in. i really think i flunked it im sure.. that 4 classed ive flunked. So i think they might kick me out and i really don't think i can get financial aid again since i totally wasted the money. MONEY IS AN ISSUE. i dont have money for college. Im so confused i don't know what im going to do i feel like a failure. What the hell am i going to do for the rest of my life? is the it? Right now im looking for a job so i can feel less crappy of myself for the time being. That way i can pay my own car insurance instead my my mother paying for it, and have a little money for myself, and probably save some. Please any suggestions? i really need help